/ 5:05 AM

/ 7:55 AM

/ 8:35 PM

OMG I JUST REALISED I DIDNT POST THIS
OKAY PRETEND TODAY IS 11TH APRIL!

darn connection sucks ):
anyway SYF IS IN 9 DAYS' TIME D:
oh no this is freaky ):
was quite upset a few days ago.
for a lot of stuff..
CCA
school work
basically almost everthing
theres too much out there for me to understand
life isnt fair afterall right
it gives you a good part
then it snatches them away from you
after you had own it for so long
long enough to call it YOURS
how could i not be sad over it
but how could i say it out to anyone
i bet she knows it more than anyone else
yet she fakes that she doesnt
wordless
helpless
hopeless
finished Change Of Heart yesterday
strogy recommend it
though it may not be the best book Jodi Picoult has ever written
but still, it was touching & quite meaningful (:
at least you know you are not wasting your time on tht book..
anyway i feel like a pig these few days
kept wating and eating
oh gosh feel fat & sinful :/
oh and i wanna GROW TALLER!!!!
TALL TALL TALL
yes my aim
i find myself random
i think i am crapping.
okay fine i should stop.
I LOVE THIS SONG <3

/ 8:55 AM

addicted - stevie hoang

Since u went away it's been one year two months
But it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together
Time has passed and things have changed so
Why do I feel this way
Cos you're with somebody else
And I'm with somebody else but

Whenever I think about the the love we had
It hurts so bad
Whenever I think about the love we made
I said that I'd be strong
Girl I really thought that I'd move on
But still I find myself asking

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

It's been long enough don't know why I'm still holding on
If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time
Cos u don't know what u got untill it's gone
It's the reason why I'm writing u this song
Girl I'm slippin and I don't know what to do
Girl I admit it, I'm sick over u
Damn I realised my mistake, my pride got in the way
I should have begged u to stay

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

If u ever lost someone u truely love
Let me hear u say yeah
And if u lost someone u truely need
Let me hear u say yeah

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

this song best describes twinny now (: she's so addicted to addicted lol.

{终于有想要更新的念头了。。
为什么用华语呢？
总觉得它跟我比较亲近。。
它。。有种能表达出感情的能力。。
今天发生的一切让我更加清醒了
是的，就算我们后悔了现在所发生的一切，也不可能回头了。。
就好像一片碎了的玻璃，不论再怎么努力挽救，它始终还是会存有裂痕。。
我，累了。。
想休息了。。
不知从何时开始，发现自己越来越爱把自己包装得很坚强，却把一切藏起来。。
不是我不愿诉苦、不愿发泄，而是我知道说了只会让更多人受伤，那又何必呢?
很多时候，事情不会在我们所能控制的范围内
而我们也只能乖乖地向命运点头。。
我试着很努力、很努力地接受一切，
但我真的做不到。。
我的心，真的负担不起这么多。。
我，对你们而言，算是什么？
如果你们想也不想就能回答这个问题，那么我可以告诉你们，
那只是一个你们习惯的答案。。
我们虽然不比你们大，经验不比你们丰富，
但我想我比你们任何一个都清楚，
你们对我们的，是一种责任，
或许把我们当成物品，有或许把我们当成一种胜利的奖品。。
无论如何，结果还是一样，事实证明了我们，也只不过是你们彼此的过去。。
那种痛，你们大概不了解吧。。
你们懂吗？
我好想好想赶快脱离这里，去找寻真正懂得爱的人。。
那种痛，已经渐渐地凝结在我的心底,
痛得已经足以让人麻木，痛得已经足以让人崩溃。。}

/ 9:55 PM

did CIP yesterday morning from 0800-1200
with Metta and Patricia
such an early time + such a quiet place (suntec&raffles) = BAD RESPONSE ):
then we decided to walk to CHIJMES to try our luck
but it didnt make a very big diff either
BUT
smth happened
this man leading this blind man
came up to us and asked us if we could bring him to THE BENCOOLEN
so we said OKAY
and started walking him there
he's quite a chatty person
asked us bout our school, name, etc.
and even told us a joke!
and finally we brought him there and another person took him away
and then Metta and I decided to go temple since we're alrdy there :p (hahah i know we're not supposed to)
then Patricia was so excited
and was so happy that a lot of people there donates
so we decided to stay there and do our CIP (forgot to mention,its flag day)
then we finished our stickers and went strolling arnd for a while and finally back to the collection station (:
after that i went jurong library with rheza (coz i need him to teach me maths & physics, i suck in both)
and then i wasted my night
yupp and i call it a day
my point is
i dont really like flag day
although its helping people in a way
but i prefer earning the money on my own rather than ask people for money without doing anything
yesterday was kind of a turn
we helped that blind man
that short period of time
felt more meaningful than the rest of the time
it wasnt about the outcome that we get
but the lesson we learn
the reflection we make
the action we take
and what i learnt
is that i take everything for granted
but when we compare ourselves with those who are less fortunate than others
who would be the luckier one?
i know this may sound very very typical
like those you would write in every reflection
those that you forge out just to get a point to fill up that piece of reflection essay
but this is what i really feel (:

/ 3:10 AM

HONEYMOON'S OVER D: (as grey as my mood D:)
as seen from the title
yes i'm back in singapore
from home
DEPRESSING D:
i miss the FOOD!
and the FUN!
i was such a good girl this year that i didnt drink nor gamble (OMG SINCEE WHEN YOU'VE CHANGED???)
since holidays are as short as whoever can imagine..
and zillions of work to be handed in
duedates are tight
URGH
HOMEWORK CAN KILL!
anyway we celebrated yunjing's birthday yesterday
WE ATE FAB COOKIES MADE BY ZOE!! :D *claps*
and we played cards till midnight heh :p
and we used ferrero rocher as uh stacks? we're the pros(:
HOME WAS GREAT!
home-cooked food&steamboat! *swallows saliva*
and those yummy cookies! (though i took like A LOT back:p)
the kind of happiness you get when you watch tv and eat all kinds of cookies at the same time..
MISS THEM ):
hv to wait till another year
wonder how would this year be..
better or worse?

/ 5:04 AM

i'm here to blog again YAY! i'm not going to let it die :D
anyway since i'm still waiting for my video to load (bs internet connection sucks)
shall upload pics on formal dinner (:
too bad mama,jas,darling werent here with us ):















kiss!














::xigua,the round one::ollie::beigua,the non-existant::donggua, the long one::nangua, the orange one:: LOL:D















four of us + our cute junior! (xinyung)















LAO YU SHENG!















lion dance!

the table was rather empty & quiet
felt weird being left alone..felt like a part of us was missing..
anyway going back home tmr!! HAH FREEDOM! :D [but obviously there's HOMEWORK..ENORMOUS AMOUNT.. D:]
and amanda's doing dumb stuff again : sending blog url to some person who wasnt supposed to know IT exist -.-
oh guess what! i did this to drena!
what are you all talking about? tell me! tell me!
can you keep a secret? *nod*
are you sure o.O
YEAH LAHHH!!!
*smile* so do i!
drena
sue en
LOL.
i dont know what to crap anymore
i'm waiting for the video to load & the images to be uploaded
and the speed's driving me crazy!
oh and ms chee gave those who scored 9/10 in our 1st bio quiz a VERY VERY cute soft toy hamster! :D
okay this was supposed to be yesterday's post and coz bs connection was so bad tht i hv to postpone this post to today
anyway just read this as if it was posted yesterday :D

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 5:05 AM

/ 7:55 AM

/ 8:35 PM

OMG I JUST REALISED I DIDNT POST THIS
OKAY PRETEND TODAY IS 11TH APRIL!

darn connection sucks ):
anyway SYF IS IN 9 DAYS' TIME D:
oh no this is freaky ):
was quite upset a few days ago.
for a lot of stuff..
CCA
school work
basically almost everthing
theres too much out there for me to understand
life isnt fair afterall right
it gives you a good part
then it snatches them away from you
after you had own it for so long
long enough to call it YOURS
how could i not be sad over it
but how could i say it out to anyone
i bet she knows it more than anyone else
yet she fakes that she doesnt
wordless
helpless
hopeless
finished Change Of Heart yesterday
strogy recommend it
though it may not be the best book Jodi Picoult has ever written
but still, it was touching & quite meaningful (:
at least you know you are not wasting your time on tht book..
anyway i feel like a pig these few days
kept wating and eating
oh gosh feel fat & sinful :/
oh and i wanna GROW TALLER!!!!
TALL TALL TALL
yes my aim
i find myself random
i think i am crapping.
okay fine i should stop.
I LOVE THIS SONG <3

/ 8:55 AM

addicted - stevie hoang

Since u went away it's been one year two months
But it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together
Time has passed and things have changed so
Why do I feel this way
Cos you're with somebody else
And I'm with somebody else but

Whenever I think about the the love we had
It hurts so bad
Whenever I think about the love we made
I said that I'd be strong
Girl I really thought that I'd move on
But still I find myself asking

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

It's been long enough don't know why I'm still holding on
If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time
Cos u don't know what u got untill it's gone
It's the reason why I'm writing u this song
Girl I'm slippin and I don't know what to do
Girl I admit it, I'm sick over u
Damn I realised my mistake, my pride got in the way
I should have begged u to stay

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

If u ever lost someone u truely love
Let me hear u say yeah
And if u lost someone u truely need
Let me hear u say yeah

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

this song best describes twinny now (: she's so addicted to addicted lol.

{终于有想要更新的念头了。。
为什么用华语呢？
总觉得它跟我比较亲近。。
它。。有种能表达出感情的能力。。
今天发生的一切让我更加清醒了
是的，就算我们后悔了现在所发生的一切，也不可能回头了。。
就好像一片碎了的玻璃，不论再怎么努力挽救，它始终还是会存有裂痕。。
我，累了。。
想休息了。。
不知从何时开始，发现自己越来越爱把自己包装得很坚强，却把一切藏起来。。
不是我不愿诉苦、不愿发泄，而是我知道说了只会让更多人受伤，那又何必呢?
很多时候，事情不会在我们所能控制的范围内
而我们也只能乖乖地向命运点头。。
我试着很努力、很努力地接受一切，
但我真的做不到。。
我的心，真的负担不起这么多。。
我，对你们而言，算是什么？
如果你们想也不想就能回答这个问题，那么我可以告诉你们，
那只是一个你们习惯的答案。。
我们虽然不比你们大，经验不比你们丰富，
但我想我比你们任何一个都清楚，
你们对我们的，是一种责任，
或许把我们当成物品，有或许把我们当成一种胜利的奖品。。
无论如何，结果还是一样，事实证明了我们，也只不过是你们彼此的过去。。
那种痛，你们大概不了解吧。。
你们懂吗？
我好想好想赶快脱离这里，去找寻真正懂得爱的人。。
那种痛，已经渐渐地凝结在我的心底,
痛得已经足以让人麻木，痛得已经足以让人崩溃。。}

/ 9:55 PM

did CIP yesterday morning from 0800-1200
with Metta and Patricia
such an early time + such a quiet place (suntec&raffles) = BAD RESPONSE ):
then we decided to walk to CHIJMES to try our luck
but it didnt make a very big diff either
BUT
smth happened
this man leading this blind man
came up to us and asked us if we could bring him to THE BENCOOLEN
so we said OKAY
and started walking him there
he's quite a chatty person
asked us bout our school, name, etc.
and even told us a joke!
and finally we brought him there and another person took him away
and then Metta and I decided to go temple since we're alrdy there :p (hahah i know we're not supposed to)
then Patricia was so excited
and was so happy that a lot of people there donates
so we decided to stay there and do our CIP (forgot to mention,its flag day)
then we finished our stickers and went strolling arnd for a while and finally back to the collection station (:
after that i went jurong library with rheza (coz i need him to teach me maths & physics, i suck in both)
and then i wasted my night
yupp and i call it a day
my point is
i dont really like flag day
although its helping people in a way
but i prefer earning the money on my own rather than ask people for money without doing anything
yesterday was kind of a turn
we helped that blind man
that short period of time
felt more meaningful than the rest of the time
it wasnt about the outcome that we get
but the lesson we learn
the reflection we make
the action we take
and what i learnt
is that i take everything for granted
but when we compare ourselves with those who are less fortunate than others
who would be the luckier one?
i know this may sound very very typical
like those you would write in every reflection
those that you forge out just to get a point to fill up that piece of reflection essay
but this is what i really feel (:

/ 3:10 AM

HONEYMOON'S OVER D: (as grey as my mood D:)
as seen from the title
yes i'm back in singapore
from home
DEPRESSING D:
i miss the FOOD!
and the FUN!
i was such a good girl this year that i didnt drink nor gamble (OMG SINCEE WHEN YOU'VE CHANGED???)
since holidays are as short as whoever can imagine..
and zillions of work to be handed in
duedates are tight
URGH
HOMEWORK CAN KILL!
anyway we celebrated yunjing's birthday yesterday
WE ATE FAB COOKIES MADE BY ZOE!! :D *claps*
and we played cards till midnight heh :p
and we used ferrero rocher as uh stacks? we're the pros(:
HOME WAS GREAT!
home-cooked food&steamboat! *swallows saliva*
and those yummy cookies! (though i took like A LOT back:p)
the kind of happiness you get when you watch tv and eat all kinds of cookies at the same time..
MISS THEM ):
hv to wait till another year
wonder how would this year be..
better or worse?

/ 5:04 AM

i'm here to blog again YAY! i'm not going to let it die :D
anyway since i'm still waiting for my video to load (bs internet connection sucks)
shall upload pics on formal dinner (:
too bad mama,jas,darling werent here with us ):















kiss!














::xigua,the round one::ollie::beigua,the non-existant::donggua, the long one::nangua, the orange one:: LOL:D















four of us + our cute junior! (xinyung)















LAO YU SHENG!















lion dance!

the table was rather empty & quiet
felt weird being left alone..felt like a part of us was missing..
anyway going back home tmr!! HAH FREEDOM! :D [but obviously there's HOMEWORK..ENORMOUS AMOUNT.. D:]
and amanda's doing dumb stuff again : sending blog url to some person who wasnt supposed to know IT exist -.-
oh guess what! i did this to drena!
what are you all talking about? tell me! tell me!
can you keep a secret? *nod*
are you sure o.O
YEAH LAHHH!!!
*smile* so do i!
drena
sue en
LOL.
i dont know what to crap anymore
i'm waiting for the video to load & the images to be uploaded
and the speed's driving me crazy!
oh and ms chee gave those who scored 9/10 in our 1st bio quiz a VERY VERY cute soft toy hamster! :D
okay this was supposed to be yesterday's post and coz bs connection was so bad tht i hv to postpone this post to today
anyway just read this as if it was posted yesterday :D