BLOCKS BLOCKS BLOCKS
i have to stop procrastinating and really really start to FOCUS on blocks
today is quite a bad day for me
especially in the evening
i was so frustrated
i almost threw my phone away

i dont understand why do we have to pay for the mistakes you all made we're not puppets with strings attached and we're not for you all to control i know sometimes its hard for both of you its even harder for us i know you all didnt choose to become like this us, neither and i love you both of you but sometimes the things you do are just too overboard did you think of us when you made your decisions i shouldnt stop you from being happy and i know you are right now and i'm happy for you coz i love you but while you feel happy, think of us too, would you?
i know you're only 15 but you really are immature for your age i wonder when will you grow up think properly think wisely perhaps he is harsh on you sometimes but do know that is coz he loves you and i'm heartbroken that you put your priority on other family but your own i'm really really sad that you still dont know how to think grow up will you? i know you have a mind of your own you think that he's too domineering and you're always frustrated when he's around and that you love being with them but think carefully, again please?

wish upon a rainbow

yes i've decided tht i should start posting on my blog again
as a result of stress + emotional
i've been procrastinating whole holidays
what am i doing seriously ):
and i know i need to study but i just cant
theres too much other stuff to worry about
like him.
somehow i just miss him a whole lot.
like really A LOT.

i miss talking to you for hours every night
like how we both dont wanna sleep and could just go on forever talking bout stuff tht doesnt even make sense
like how we could just share the funniest little stories tht ever happened to us
like how we laughed about the most trivial stuff
i miss those moments.
they could never be replaced by anyone.
i dont know
they just cant
i know you got over me alrdy and i shouldnt be doing this
and i shouldnt miss you like how i am now
but i just cant control ):

and i owe you an apology.
i wasnt there for you when you need me
when you need someone
i forced myself not to be there for you so tht you could get over me
and now i regret
i shouldnt hv done tht to you
i know now it seems superficial with all these apologies tht couldnt reverse what has been done to you
but i still wanna apologise
I'M SORRY.
i truly am.
i couldnt tell you how much i miss you but yes i miss you!
and i hope tht at least we could still be friends?
i hate not talking to you it makes me feel sad.

and i owe him an apology too.
i'm sorry this relationship couldnt last
you could put the blame on me
guess i'm not the kind of person tht a guy could hold on to
i just prefer being single
i'm really really sorry if i hurt you much.
no doubt i will.
and its not because i like someone else or what
its really really not trust me

AND I STILL MISS YOU. GET OUT OF MY MIND ):
RIGHT NOW I NEED TO START STUDYING BYEEEEE.