BLOCKS BLOCKS BLOCKS
i have to stop procrastinating and really really start to FOCUS on blocks
today is quite a bad day for me
especially in the evening
i was so frustrated
i almost threw my phone away

i dont understand why do we have to pay for the mistakes you all made we're not puppets with strings attached and we're not for you all to control i know sometimes its hard for both of you its even harder for us i know you all didnt choose to become like this us, neither and i love you both of you but sometimes the things you do are just too overboard did you think of us when you made your decisions i shouldnt stop you from being happy and i know you are right now and i'm happy for you coz i love you but while you feel happy, think of us too, would you?
i know you're only 15 but you really are immature for your age i wonder when will you grow up think properly think wisely perhaps he is harsh on you sometimes but do know that is coz he loves you and i'm heartbroken that you put your priority on other family but your own i'm really really sad that you still dont know how to think grow up will you? i know you have a mind of your own you think that he's too domineering and you're always frustrated when he's around and that you love being with them but think carefully, again please?

wish upon a rainbow

yes i've decided tht i should start posting on my blog again
as a result of stress + emotional
i've been procrastinating whole holidays
what am i doing seriously ):
and i know i need to study but i just cant
theres too much other stuff to worry about
like him.
somehow i just miss him a whole lot.
like really A LOT.

i miss talking to you for hours every night
like how we both dont wanna sleep and could just go on forever talking bout stuff tht doesnt even make sense
like how we could just share the funniest little stories tht ever happened to us
like how we laughed about the most trivial stuff
i miss those moments.
they could never be replaced by anyone.
i dont know
they just cant
i know you got over me alrdy and i shouldnt be doing this
and i shouldnt miss you like how i am now
but i just cant control ):

and i owe you an apology.
i wasnt there for you when you need me
when you need someone
i forced myself not to be there for you so tht you could get over me
and now i regret
i shouldnt hv done tht to you
i know now it seems superficial with all these apologies tht couldnt reverse what has been done to you
but i still wanna apologise
I'M SORRY.
i truly am.
i couldnt tell you how much i miss you but yes i miss you!
and i hope tht at least we could still be friends?
i hate not talking to you it makes me feel sad.

and i owe him an apology too.
i'm sorry this relationship couldnt last
you could put the blame on me
guess i'm not the kind of person tht a guy could hold on to
i just prefer being single
i'm really really sorry if i hurt you much.
no doubt i will.
and its not because i like someone else or what
its really really not trust me

AND I STILL MISS YOU. GET OUT OF MY MIND ):
RIGHT NOW I NEED TO START STUDYING BYEEEEE.

my childhood memory!

our friendship will last

had fun with yy at ikea yesterday!

felt like a kid all over again hahah :D

people were like giving us weird stares wondering what on earth are we doing when we were posing for the camera lol.

shopping at ikea was fun whee

bought new table lamp (i broke my old one :/) and got super high coz its red lol

then we had hotdogs for dinner (:

and i think both of us were lucky heee

found the stuff tht we want at a good price (:

bball at 12 bucks no kidding.

but then its a no-brand ball lol.

oh wells i'll most probably be getting another one for my bro anyway

and it'll be a good one i promise!

felt so tired after i went back i slept till 930 this morning hahah

stupid biological alarm woke me up at the wrong time :/

had CT OUTING today!

was quite fun though only 14 ppl turn up hahah.

frisbee-ed, picnic-ed, truth-or-dare-ed, gossip-ed :D

and this is what i've concluded :

phslottyl has bad observation skills :p

huiyan is a total noob in frisbee XD

the guys are so lazy they wait for girls to serve them -.-

junyi tries very hard to run away from arveen but arveen just cant stop clinging on to him lol.

we've roughly decided on where to go for our jts (:

our class is a very scandalous one! :o

i currently have a weird obsession with colourful stuff e.g. crayons + cinderella!

Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman

She spins and she sways
To whatever song plays
Without a care in the world
And I'm sitting here wearing
The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day
And there's still work to do
She's pulling at me
Saying "Dad, I need you

There's a ball at the castle
And I've been invited
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "Dad, the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

She will be gone

Well, she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowing and telling us all they had planned
She says, "Dad, the wedding's still six months away
But I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

it reminds me of my dad

if theres something that you should blame

it would be the history of you and her

and the tiredness will not wear off no matter what ):

the uniqueness of everyone is what that makes the world colourful

what an injury-prone year ):

firstly my knees during orientation games.

now my toes during our (failed attempts) of jumpshots :/

its really disgusting!

but then again theres always a flipside to everything (:

so theres also successful ones of course! :D

learnt how to swim from my cousin just now.

epic fail lol

okay so i dont know how to swim

at least i learnt how to float :D (i think?)

i'll be going back spore tmr ):

fun's just started and it has to end after a day. great.

wish me luck i think i'll be stucked on the road for at least 8 hours :/

and i'm craving for starbucks AGAIN!

seriously whats with me and starbucks o.o

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND

VALENTINE’S DAY ALL!
its a lonely chinese new year this year ):
everyone’s only gonna come tmr or tues
which by then I’ll be going back spore alrdy ):
not fun at all boo.
and I realized I’m not the only one who feels like this new year is especially quiet!
yunjing john yingyen feels the same too hahah
everybody’s like so bored this new year!

today was quite fun though!
got a new bag and my dad paid for it :D
how rare is that lol.
and I drank starbucks!
dark mocha frappuccino blended coffee is the love!

and my hard disk ran out of space I have to delete grey’s anatomy coz it took up too much space o.o

okay now I’m gonna have to go back to angel-mortal letter writing and homework.
I know I know
I’m so guai hahahh :D

and to butch's friend aka the gay :p

I've updated my blog! LOL! :D

I wanna lend you my ears but I cant
it’ll only make things worse
I’m sure I’m not THE one and the ONLY one
theres too many options out there
don’t limit yourself
and don’t waste time on me?
its not worth it at all
and you changed to be a better person for yourself, not only me
please stay the same way as you are now, will you?

i just realised how long have i not been blogging.

my last post was 19 sept 2009! :o

and i have only 80+ posts when jas have 400+ posts. good job.

decided to blog again coz it kills time!

sch's started and i thought no one is in any mood to study now (though we're supposed to read up on econs notes ourselves before thurs)

but it was the exact opposite o.o

people are already starting to mug.

except those who're like me

who likes to continue enjoying our honeymoon period before cny! :D

cny's coming up reallll soon!

cant wait to go home and eat some PROPER food.

YEPP I'LL BE GOING HOME ON FRI :D

whoever can imagine how bs food taste like :/

and i think i'm growing!

cant stop feeling hungry everytime.

what is happening to my body :o

and i think i'm going to give up MAD modern for council.

really really hope tht i'll get in council!

been in a deep dilemma of whether should i join dance or council :/

for all i know dancing is part of my life

but council is something i had never experienced and would like to try

so i decided that i should choose council instead!

its the last chance i'll ever get to join council

COUNCIL HERE I COME! :D

life in jc is actually quite different

and i prefer 406 to present ct ):

I MISS YOU 406!

AND OG12! :D

cant wait till this friday!