yes i've decided tht i should start posting on my blog again
as a result of stress + emotional
i've been procrastinating whole holidays
what am i doing seriously ):
and i know i need to study but i just cant
theres too much other stuff to worry about
like him.
somehow i just miss him a whole lot.
like really A LOT.

i miss talking to you for hours every night
like how we both dont wanna sleep and could just go on forever talking bout stuff tht doesnt even make sense
like how we could just share the funniest little stories tht ever happened to us
like how we laughed about the most trivial stuff
i miss those moments.
they could never be replaced by anyone.
i dont know
they just cant
i know you got over me alrdy and i shouldnt be doing this
and i shouldnt miss you like how i am now
but i just cant control ):

and i owe you an apology.
i wasnt there for you when you need me
when you need someone
i forced myself not to be there for you so tht you could get over me
and now i regret
i shouldnt hv done tht to you
i know now it seems superficial with all these apologies tht couldnt reverse what has been done to you
but i still wanna apologise
I'M SORRY.
i truly am.
i couldnt tell you how much i miss you but yes i miss you!
and i hope tht at least we could still be friends?
i hate not talking to you it makes me feel sad.

and i owe him an apology too.
i'm sorry this relationship couldnt last
you could put the blame on me
guess i'm not the kind of person tht a guy could hold on to
i just prefer being single
i'm really really sorry if i hurt you much.
no doubt i will.
and its not because i like someone else or what
its really really not trust me

AND I STILL MISS YOU. GET OUT OF MY MIND ):
RIGHT NOW I NEED TO START STUDYING BYEEEEE.