finally decided that i should start updating my blog

probably coz i dont really wanna keep a diary in case the kids (yeah, those cousins) decided to look through my stuff and find my diary

but then again i think i will disappear for a longlong while after this post

totally mugging time till As :/

results for BT2 are finally out, and obviously my results still suck like shit :x

how ironic, i studied for physics and it was my worst subject hah

guess i really hv no single physics genes at all grah.

yeah, totally explains why i became fatter now ):

and i decided i should stop eating fried food (& fast food) D:

i think i lack motivation to be a student

one of our essay questions for BT was "one way to look at life is to look upon it as an adventure" and it is to live life like everyday is the last

i think i'm that kind of person

i think i like freedom

i like breaking away from the usual routine

and in this case the so called compulsory education

i know that everyday is like going against myself because i'm studying for the sake of studying

but it is not a choice

my future is in a blur, but i know i dont wanna do this for the rest of my life, walking a path everyone thinks i have to, a path that has been crafted and shaped everyone

it just sucks, yet i am in no power to control my life

i always think that maybe someday, something in me will wake up and i will become smarter

but good things are always a dream aye.

i think i hv depression

but i'm reallyreally grateful someone came along and saved me

if it werent for him, i think i wont be able to put up with all these

thanks baby <3

kay gotta do econs bye